Informal Theme #2

The Man I Owe.

Whenever I want to be pampered, I sub-consciously run to my mother’s bosom. In her touch, I find comfort and in her lap, I sense warmth. Before school, I make sure that I give her a quick kiss before running to board the school bus. At times of failure, my mom is my first stop. To her, I cry my feelings and ask for advises.  My mom was my best companion. While my dad, well, is my total opposite.

During Father’s days, our house remains as it is; short conversations, no gifts, no greetings. It was never special to me. Though awkwardness comes, I learned to handle it. Through time, I had accepted the fact that the usual scenarios I see on those days are huge dreams that are far from my reality.

I never had a chance to bond with him. Or maybe I had, I just don’t want to. There is a certain gap between us. I don’t know where it is coming from but I know there is. We never conversed on personal things. The usual talk we have is arguments. I can’t barely remember the last time he told me that he was so proud of me. At times, I just make myself believe that he loves me; I’m just too insensitive to feel it.

My growing up years will never be complete without him. There would be no one to carry me on his back when hard rains fall during school days. There would be no one to fetch me with our old green squeaking car after classes. And there would be no superhero who would force my mom to buy me toys whenever she refuses to.

Words will never be enough to express my gratitude for having you. I know, I have been rude to you for enormous times and I am sorry for always making you feel bad. I love you, dad. I can’t imagine myself without you and mom. I learned how to live life and fight at struggles because of you. You two are my world. You are my source of strength to conquer and continue this lumpy ride. I know, someday, I will be able to equal your efforts. Again, I love you… Happy Father’s Day. :)